Finally truly looks like I’m pregs and not just that I maybe ate a big lunch or haven’t done a crunch since 2010. Belly feels harder and junk. Crazy stretching pains all along the sides of my abdomen pretty much all the time. Getting up is getting difficult. I almost passed out in church this week – I couldn’t get comfortable in the chairs and felt lightheaded, and I feel like there wasn’t adequate oxygen flow in the room. I’m most comfortable sitting/laying at a slight incline with my feet curled up next to me. Also starting to have lower back soreness, and my tailbone randomly started being sensitive to hard surfaces the other day. Pregnancy is weird.
A lot of women say they can feel baby move by this point. It’s supposed to feel like gas, or other bodily functions. How am I supposed to know, then? I haven’t felt anything that I could even question as being baby moving. It’s making me go crazy. At night I’ll like hold my breath and try to concentrate real hard on the area where my belly sticks out the most and wait for some kind of squirming to happen. Nothin yet. Hopefully soon. I wanna feel the nugget in there, as creepy as that thought actually is.
Other than that, I’ve got so much energy and appetite back, relatively. I can actually do things other than couch potato marathon during the day, though afternoon naps are pretty mandatory. And I get hungry for things! Lots of different kinds of foods! I can only eat about half the portion size I would normally eat before pregnancy but I feel healthier because of it. I love salads and fresh fruit. Anything fresh tasting. I had some pesto on a pizza the other day and the basil was so fresh it was amazing. No more nasty greasy food cravings thank God.
Visiting our hometown has been really sweet, but it’s also made me really sad to have to go back tomorrow. I loved getting loved on my family and friends, it made the pregnancy feel more real to see their excitement. And then just the feeling of community – I miss it so much. We had it in such abundance for so long, and then now we are so isolated out there it feels wrong. I’m glad to have the adventure of somewhere new but there’s just something about Knoxville my heart will always gravitate towards.